ha ngov er.

Its the 10/09/09 today. Im having a fucking hangover. so practically, fuck? ha yaa.

yeah.. Yesterday was 090909. So was supposedly me and Helmy's 3rd year anniversary. But things have changed now. Hope he's doing well tho. Anyway, was Kira's birthday too. HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR! :) Celebrated Kira's birthday after work. Had a mini birthday party at 'the lobby' with Us, niezam, azam, bedah & in. Ate Mango flavoured birthday cake. Which after drank like nobody's business. Wild Turkey fucking shots again and again. K.O at the end of the night. And thanks to Azam, sent me home. Thank you. Anyway, glad kira had fun. I love you girl.

So anyway, i fell asleep at 12plus am and woke up an hour later. Like wtf? Started texting baybee back alw thru the night while i was tossing and turning tryin to zzz back! but i cant. so yeah only an hour sleep for me and a fucking hangover. Ending up meeting Azam so fucking early at 8.30am for the sake of getting me ciggs. ayoooooo. lucky few blocks away only. Which after met kira and three had breakfast at kfc. hahahaha tak posa aku saket ok shuts.

Eh know what, im lazy to continue. bye ah.
i love baybee. :)

Someone...

...who matters more than myself. <3

Its lazy Sunday. Rained the whole night and i slept in till the noon. Shiok! ehehehe. Still quite shagged from yesterday and boyyyyy my body is aching as hell. Attended family day at SJC in the morn with the girls. Which after met baybee at Compass with the boys. Followed the boys for some 'clap' performance nearby Kallang. Bayb is still sleeping, guess he must be really tired. Much more than i am. And this morning conversation wasnt that pleasant. What the fuck is wrong with me?! Didnt mean to sound rude. Im sorry hon, i miss you. <3! Wake up sooooooon? Mwahhh.

FUCK im blinded.

Just came home awhile ago and im feeling quite shagged.
Went over to baybee's crib in the afternoon cause i miss him so much and also to buke with the family. Nice and funny people, made me feel so comfortable like im already apart of it. Hate to admit this but im jealous and i miss the feeling of a 'kecoh-kecoh' & happy big family. This is always an issue with me. Seeing happy family, how i miss my past. Oh well... anyway, Thank you darling. <3!
Sent him to work which after at DXO and which dropped by baybeats ALONE, yes alone to enjoy a few min of music. And lucky me, i finally got to hear ESTRANGED live!!! One of my fav Malaysian band. Adore them! And i broke my specs and slipper in the mosh pit. Fuck it. Thats all and headed home when i bumped into my ex-sjc junior.

Tomorrow is a new day and have to leave home early. Going to SJC for family day, to finally meet my long lost friends. Ughhhhhh miss em! Which after meeting my boyfriend near-by and head out with his boys. Now i gtg, bye bye.

-.-

HEY JANTZxzxz,
IM NOT YOUR MOTHA-FUCKING PRINCESS! _|_
Cut the craps, or ill CUT you fucking dicks off snap snap snap. ehhhhheee~ R-WAR.

On a lighter note:
HI BOYFRIEND, i mish you. xoxo :)

Happy Birthday Mama. :)

HI. Came home awhile ago from vivo celebrating my mama's birthday. Treat both mom and sis to movie & dinner! HAPPY --TH BIRTHDAY MAMA! hahaha age censored sorry. Watched FINAL DESTINATION. The violence was awesome but not as good as expected. The rest of the final destinations were MUCH BETTER! hahaha. We had fun. :) I love you mummy kins. xoxoxoxo.

Im gotta eat mee soto now, mom just cooked. and...

I'm in love with my boyfriend. xo

Its a new kind of fun.

Time check: 3.48pm. I just woke up from an hour of afternoon nap. :) Head down to TPS in the early morning with mom for 'report strength'. Waste of time, went there just to collect some letter. Like wtf?! I could do it myself right? Grrrr. Anyway, clean up my closet and i swear i have alooooooooot of clothes i supposed i haven touched in ages? Hahaha! Doing so while talking with my S & i guess it kindda distracted me a lil, errr alot? hehehehe! Anyway gotta wake mom up from her nap sooon and i gotta get ready for buke at nenek hse.

Anyway, yesterday's outing after work GREAT! Met my boyfriend at MS, and was introduced to his bro & gf, and two other friends. Seems like a tripppppple date like that? heheh yeah. Broke fast @ MakanSutra and than headed down to Cineleasure for a 'family movie'. Scream my lungs out watching 4BIA. All 6 of us, in the freakin' cosyyyyyy cold room...? Just imagine. And i kindda accidentally knocked my head quite a number of times on the wall when i jerked! Scary movies...hayo. hehehe! Baybee had to put his whole palm on my head just in case. hehehe! Took quite a number of pictures for my memories. :)))) However, i dont know how long ill i get the pics. Its with them. Anyway, nice making new MATURE friends! hahahahah lol *winkswinks*.

Okay i gtg now, wake mom up & holla ma boy. xoxo

You silly girl

Yet again, i'm in the office doing some advertising work. Okay was hungry for a moment just now but its slowly fading away. Funny how my stomach works, im using a little hungry around the morning-noon. But once its reaching towards breaking fast, i dont even feel hungry at all!!
Like how i broke fast yesterday with a couple handful of salty popcorn and few nachos dipped in warm cheese. Oh!, plus enjoyed the rest 2 hours and 3 min watch The Orphan @ TB's GV.

Met my bartender boy after work yesterday for movie and break fast. The Orphan was a-okay to me. A quite slow moving storyline but was worth watching. Esther's secret was sad and definitely UNEXPECTED. And the thriller of cos, shocked the hell out of me. After the movie, brought S to a personal meaningful place to me. Enjoyed the streetlights view accompanied with meaningful conversations, teddy-like cuddles and shy passionate kisses. We made a move at 11pm since i was late grrrr.

10.45pm; 24/08/09.
I love you Baybee. :)

ps: So, hands off dickheads and single jantz, im officially taken. :D

so what the hell? H a, ha

In the office alone, the boys are out at the normal smoking area for discussion leaving me alone. Giving the bored kid a good reason to facebook, blogging and dont know what more waste of time at work. HA? So what am i supposed to do.

Office is closing very early today. And i cant wait, at the same time nervous to meet Mr Bartender again at TB plaza to break fast and watch movie together after work. OKAY so im taking slow steps to fucking move on from my past. You know, we all know. Met all kinds of guys in the past ONE month and i actually couldnt be bothered anymore. hehehehe! But ill give this one shot yeah as said? :)

ps: i miss aisyah. GRRRR

For an old bestfriend who has a new bestfriend, Ignorance so fuck you Sir :)

If I'm a bad person, you don't like me
Well, I guess I'll make my own way
It's a circle, a mean cycle
I can't excite you anymore
Where's your gavel? Your jury?
What's my offense this time?
You're not a judge but if you're gonna judge me
Well sentence me to another life.

Don't wanna hear your sad songs
I don't wanna feel your pain
When you swear it's all my fault
Cause you know we're not the same
No, we're not the same
No, well, we're not the same
We're the friends who stuck together,
We wrote our names in blood,
But I guess you can't accept that the change is good
It's good, it's good

Well, you treat me just like another stranger
Well, it's nice to meet you, sir
I guess I'll go,
I best be on my way out

You treat me just like another stranger
Well, it's nice to meet you, sir
I guess I'll go,
I best be on my way out

Ignorance is your new best friend,
Ignorance is your new best friend

This is the best thing that could've happened;
Any longer and I wouldn't have made it
It's not a war, no, it's not a rapture
I'm just a person, but you can't take it
The same tricks that, that once fooled me
They won't get you anywhere
I'm not the same kid from your memory
Well, now I can fend for myself

Don't wanna hear your sad songs
I don't wanna feel your pain
When you swear it's all my fault
Cause you know we're not the same
No, we're not the same
No, well, we're not the same
Yeah, we used to stick together,
We wrote our names in blood,
But I guess you can't accept that the change is good
It's good, it's good

Well, you treat me just like another stranger
Well, it's nice to meet you, sir
Well, I guess I'll go,
I best be on my way out

You treat me just like another stranger
Well, it's nice to meet you, sir
Well,I guess I'll go,
I best be on my way out

Ignorance is your new best friend,
Ignorance is your new best friend.
Ignorance is your new best friend,
Ignorance is your new best friend.

Well, you treat me just like another stranger
Well, it's nice to meet you, sir
Well, I guess I'll go
I best be on my way out

Ypu treat me just like another stranger,
Well, it's nice to meet you, sir
I guess I'll go,
I best be on my way out

_|_ you!, for the mean time youre like this.

Before i run far far away, i need to take a holiday

Today is the beginning of a new week and i hope its so much better than the past weeks which has been from bad to worst. Yesterday ended with something to ponder about. Why do i love getting my own heart hurt? I know this is bound to happen but why do i still let it be? Really, now i really feel somehow that God is trying to tell me that its not the time yet to move on from my past. Maybe im tested to be patient to wait for my past to come around for the better? idk. So fucking many question waiting to be answered by no one! Knn. Someone please help me move on! But i dont want any boyfriend. How? haha :)

Fasting month is coming. weeeeheee~ I dunno but fasting month feels so homey. Im not looking forward for Raye tho. First, so many to apologize to and the one person ive been celebrating with the past two years, gone... :( To me, i dont think there's no more for me to live for in this fucking world. haiz... Okay pardon me for my emo-ness. Bye la! -.-

Bilakah mungkin nanti itu?

:) I just woke up from a 9 hours zzzz. Like finally i got to sleep for more than 7 hours unlike most of the days and most importantly, i slept without waking up to any nightmares in the early morn. Aisyah is still zzzzing tho. Came home w her to her crib at 4.30am just now and crashed in around 5. Hahaha! It was an unplanned trip to DXO since it was ladies nights there. However i swear it was the most unhappening party ever. Feels more like a bar? yeah. Like so many 'phinoys'!, and the people dancing were so kens. haha! But since it was just to chill ourselves ermmm, actually chill myself, we had quite fun. And i haven reply 'mr bartender'. hehehehhe, dun even know what's his name. Cant be bothered to ask actually. My hp is flat sorry? and charger's at home @ grandmas'.

Oh wells, i keep asking myself.
When will my heart ever stop crying bout the same old thing?
When will my mind ever stop flashing back the good old memories?
When will i ever stop to have hope that i'll get to see his face again? and and,
When will i ever have the faith to fall in Love again?

idk.

Was listening to songs thats reminds me of everthing. How do i stop? I think im going insane. Please, just put a bullet thru my fucking head! Ugggggh. Okay -.- hahahaha!
Peterpan songs makes me emo. :(

Why are you being such a bitch?

At my girl's place. Since Hadee is sick, zoo plans are cancel og well. hehehehe. Hmmmmm i dunno what to blog nowdays. Just that trouble keeps on finding me fuckers. lol. okay and i miss u. BYE toncet

aku want fun hehehe

Its the 11th today! Meaning H is coming from from his hols! I hate to admit this but, imy. ^_^v But still dont wan end of August to come! cbcbcbcb. :(((

I'm craving for BIG big fun soooooon. Someone throw a party at my face please? hehehe. Im bragging bout this again. -.- I haven had time for myself and my lovely friends. Kinda got myself into a lil big problem but im A okay yes? uhhuhhh. :) Lucky so.
Anyway, heard there's a event at Home today, free entry. Should i go? But i dont know who to ask along. Kinda lazy too. ehuehuehueheu! Need to see my girls soon! Aisyah? Kai? Fana? Faster faster ah memberxz!

I to plan something for someone. Arhhhhhhhhhh! So much to do, soooo little time! Hope this isnt a waste of time. Okay, ive gone nothing else to say so bbye.

ps: Im working on my onlinecatalog-blog regarding hard and softwares. Spread the loveeeeee to friends and families who wants to get one aite? see ya sooooon! :)

xoxoxo, Diia. :))

A new life she has found...

Firstly I wanna apollogize to all my friends for my M.I.A-ness. Been so busy with work, revision, licensee, etc. I realised i barely have time for myself!& my friends. Eye bags are accumilating and my body is starting to fight back already. :((( Boooohoooo...

And bad enough, i kindda already forgotten what has happened this past month! Like wtf?! Am not joking. I cant remember! lol, funny in a way tho. And im at work ,with Kira. The boys has gone for Friday prayers. :) So anyway, all i know my social life has had a paused since i got busy jugling two jobs and also revising for my retaking Os and also the not-so-enough-rest. However, staying with grans now and i haven met mom and sis for quite sometime now. I miss you two!! xoxo. But i guess, its for both our benefits & besides.. its nearer to both work.

Regarding people, I haven met my girl Haysia for a long time and i miss her loads. So sorry baybee busy. And my secondary school friends, oh how i miss those days. And my ex cum bff, i think he officially is selfish to just think whats best for himself and i guess my feelings are nothing, oh well, i still love you no matter what. :) And few days back i finally met my two 'member lama', kai and fana. :) Hanged out awhile at bukit batok, but a random met-up tho. ahaha! And lastly, ive been trying to sqweeze my time for my bike buddy! Its sad tho, i dont want to end August! But you know, i'll miss you. xxo


Anyway, note to ALL:
Those to wants/in need of laptop & desktop. I'll be selling it at a lower-marked price.

There are so much more, this are just the only few three im posting here. If you are interested to check out what are the rest or regarding this three, email me at, diia@bbmg.com.sg or sms me(if you know my contact number) regarding the FULL catalog or if you're interested to purchase. Thank you and hope to hear from you guys. Chaox! :))

cant find no one better than him...

Someone i'll never forget and will always be in my heart and soul.
Once, The bestest friend, the most-honest being, the most loving& loyal boyfriend.
Forever, my most sweet and treasured memory and moments.

I would never lie that i still havent move on till this day. I dont understand how 'some' people can just fall in and out of love so easily. Its like it dont matter to them that others, actually has emotions. Dont they ever give a second thought on how this may actually affect them in the future. That people may not take them seriously because, it is a small small world afterall, right?

To be honest maybe i cant move on is because i dont want to. I can never find anyone better than him, well, at least yet. Yes, i can fall in love with someone, but the love i dedicated to Helmy, will never be as strong and passionate to someone else. Because frankly, no one deserves it yet. I still remember when everyone says, " Asal la kau dapat laki semue name start dari H?! Tapi semue compatible tuk ko. Fated peeee cb!" hahahahaha. Funny, how i actually believe in that. Yes, i did.

I just miss having someone so honest and loyal with me. Someone who would sacrifice everything to be with me most of the time. Someone who doesnt share his unique love with others but only showers it on me. Can i find anyone better than him? No, not at least yet that i know of. Period!

Oh well, meeting my baybee toncet girl soon. Fetching her at j.e after her work and we gonna talk bout some important stuffs. heheheheheh! Gossip girls...i miss em. But i need to go bbdc soon to top up. Wish someone were t accompany me. Hai... Okay chaox. :)

Its a misery business.

Second chances they don't ever matter

People never change
Once a whore, you're nothing more
I'm sorry, that'll never change

And about forgiveness

We're both supposed to have exchanged
I'm sorry honey but I'm passing up
Now look this way

Well there's a million other girls
Who do it just like you
Looking as innocent as possible
To get to who

They want and what they like
It's easy if you do it right
Well I refuse, I refuse, I refuse

All we know is falling...

Yes, i'm finally back! After a longgggg time yes? lol! That's cause lappy just came back from the docs. :)
So an update of what has happen this past days, week maybe...
Days have gotten worse even when i try to look on the brighter side. It wont work pretendin' most of the time. I know you wont come back to cure all the pain im going thru and to clear the mess in my life like you used to. I came pleading but you wouldnt listen. Im just not used to having to cry alone and stand up with you holding me thru. Just wish you'd come back home, but i know you wont again. Im sorry and Dido misses you each time kissed him goodnight. People are so mean to me nowdays and i dont feel i belong anywhere. :(((

Right now, i dont really believe in true love anymore, not anytime soon. Its a game to everyone anyway right? Even if we hoped for it to be true, behind all truths, there's always a lie. And despite knowing he lie, we ought to keep quiet afraid to loose the hope. The little hope we put in, hoping for it to grow atleast a little bigger. But when i know... after everything, i will end up loosing everything. So why do i keep holding on? Blame it on hope.

And to whom this may concern,
I'm sorry and i really dont wish for it to be this way. You're someone i really would not like to loose as a friend. I just hope one day you'd see that im not that bad you see me to be. Sorry.

saket head

Aku feeling really sleepy now. Hahahaha! After work fetch aku peh Heart from home to work. Best dapat hug die dpt kiss die dpt tengok muke cute die, peh aku miss ah tu. Lol, why the fuck am i talking like this?! Like shiok like that uh cheeeebi.

Okay so im at home now, just ate Mc Spicy for lunch. Waiting for time to pass till 5.30pm till i meet Hakimmmmmmm! Tapi SP near so ok can. lol. Aku know aku cam cb now talk like this cause aku bored and feeling lame. -.-''' Tomorrow's Friday and gotta head to BBDC rumah again. haiiiya! Oh, and im thinking for converting to a full-timer at work. At least i can save half the pay for my bike later on. This gets fucking stress at times. Oh wells... All by meself somemoreee fuck!
My retaking O's is around the corner and i swear i need to rush things up!!! More lucks for me please? :)))

Okay bye.

Riding dirty

Just finish talking otf with my gangsta boy. :))) Only God knows how much the call means to me. Hush hush, only mine to feel. (bhsvIjsbsLOhbshbsVEhbsvYOU!)

Today was fine. Woke up early morn met Hakim eat breakfast at LJ! hahahaha! Work was boring and Husaini fetched me after work today and went Yishun lepakz! Hahahaha, needed that after work. Thank you. hehe! Made new friends, yayyyy! Get well soon okay? And i'll see you soon. :) Gonna meet my girl tomorrow, i miss her so much! Gosh got TL on Friday lazy!

Hmmmm been thinking alot bout what Aisyah and my mom says/advice. Maybe i shld just move on and dont look back. There's no use holding on and holding on to the memories and empty promises. Not a single text or call for a week? I think thats enough to make me realise maybe you just want to end the friendship this way. Its time to move on i guess? yeah. I wont wait, i wont hope, i wont turn back, i wont expect anything from you..anymore. You want me, come find me. Other than that, all the best H. :)

Okay, i think im crazy. Keep checking my HP for his goodnight message. Cheeeeebi aku.

okay nights belos. xxo

thinking of you.

Im lost now, so where do i go? ;(((

Krazzzzzzzy

@ my girl's crib now! yeah crashing here for the night cause aunty and uncle go Malaysia. Time to stress release and be krazzzzzzy! hehehehehe. Met my new bbdc friend, Hakim, for lunch today and than lepak at my hometown. Lepak2 till fall asleep awhile can! Took so many pics with his hp cam, i swear im bad with cameras. Cinfirm banyak amek punye. hehehehe ok lame.

Met my lovely gangsta boy which after and im so sorry darling im super late. Really thought you were still asleep and i just wanted you to rest. I love you alright? :) But im glad we got to spent gooooood time together. Wish it was longer, just wish the night didnt end so fast where you had to go meet your boys. We'll meet very soon yes? Yes. Waiting for your call/text now, now that its flat i guess. xoxo for you A! <3

Okay im hungry and Aisyah just cooked for my tomyam maggie, thanks baby! Tired after webcam! Okay bye cheebyes.

release me, release my body

Glad that i woke up early this morning tho i only feel asleep at 3am yesterday and successfully attended my BTL. Class was boring and i almost fell zzzzzzz! But was glad i made one new friend. :) Guess what?! Being me, i left my HP outside the class and just went in without turning back to check like i'll always do. Careless ah careless!! Lucky, one blessed soul came up to me and pass my phone in my face. And i was like, "ehhh thanks." Didnt know how to fucking react, cheeebi paisey bodoh aku. Hahahahah! So decided to thank him after lesson and yeah so we hang out after that before i had to head up to work, you know the intros and all. Nice guy, and i wasnt too surprised he was A friend!!!!! Face so familiar skali really him. hahahaha, oh what a small small world. lol! :P

Okay, so H still decides to ignore me, probably hates me by now for im not quite sure the reason is. I think im just gonna keep my mind on much more healthier stuffs. Im making my own move, see ya buddy! If this is what he chooses, by means, i'll pray i'll be fine with it. Chins up Diia! :)) Just glad and looking forward to meeting my gangsta boy tomorrow since im off! yayyyyy, imysm A.

There's no use being too nice, so why the fuck should i care now that you dont. Because ive got a heart! HA, hahaha. xoxo, kiss ass. imy tho. bye fuckeder.

My healer...

This wound is still fresh and it pains everytime i have my day-dreaming. Everyone would know where my mind has gone to and it pains them to see me cry inside. But when than you came back into my life, i'm actually healing, slowly. Though it would take quite sometime, im sure you'll be here to heal me all the way. 6 months have been long time since we've gone, but im sure during that period you had someone to cover my place. And its my apologies. But i've always knew, secretly, you'd come along some time. And i wasnt wrong at all. Now that you're here to stay, i wanna tell you, i'll follow you. I think, i've given my chance to open up my heart to someone new, someone not so new, someone to love. We all we young once, we all make mistakes, and im sure i'll understand and forget what complications that have happened between us the last 6 months. I'm willing to change you darling when you actually came up to me personally, asking for me help, asking me to help you become a better man. Rest assured A, i'm here to stay remember? I wont promised forever, and i wont know how long, but all i know i want to stay with you now and make it last forever. I dont want this moment to ever end. I wont hope, but this time, i'll have a little faith and let it grow...

I want you to know

With everything I won't let this go, these words are my heart and soul
I'll hold on to this moment you know, as I bleed my heart out to show
And I won't let go

Sincerely, Diia.

ccb

Fuck the taxi this morning! cheeeebi ahhhh. At my girl's home now, need to talk some important stuffs. Tau, aku tak habis abis stress ade prob gile babs! Hhahahaha. Got work later at 6pm on a saturday like chiao chee biiiiiii. Waiting for someone to wake up, imy. Oh well, ntn to blog today.

get fucked up well

Zzzzzzzzzz! Haven slept since yesterday and im not that tired but my eyes are giving up, there's finally starting to shut down! Could barely open my eyes at work today and i think i just served the MSP oh lols.

Yesterday was fuckingly awesomely great. So my girl and some others who actually cares about my feelings and how i roll my life says, Its time i let go cause i deserve to be treated soooo much better! :)) And i finally open up my heart to the one person whom i had thought wrong about all along. And this time im on the right track. Take this slow... :)

okay bye peepssss ive got to do some texting! chaox.

After all, we are only humans...

Home with my girl now @ my crib. Met her after work today and head to BBDC to attend for my briefing. HEHEHEEHE! Yayyyy my first PT1.01 is this Sat and my BT is on the next day. :))) Mom and sis are away for a couple of days and i'd take this time to have my alone time. Imma grown up kiddo ready i feel that there's no need to babysitting just because no one's at home. I'm staying home! I want time by myself or maybe with someone like Aisyah. i love you girl. <3

Happy 34th H! Hope youre fine and doing good. youre always someone to me. :)

Its funny how people change so quickly. Oh wells... Heading out to Lucky for pool and some punches in the evening later with my girl. I'll feel much better, i know i will. hehehehe! No boys just girls only!

This is coming from the M language, "Peh laki letak tepi ah. Kite kite pompan rock je bole make it. Tak mati pe tak jadi sundal dorang hahaha! peh mulat aku rembat siol ko. laki tak perlu uang masa aje beb hahaha. nak pompan je okay? HAHAHAHA. ko diam biatcccccch!" hahahaha cheeeebi sak. okay stop nahhhhhh,

okay xoxo babi.

This fool.

Today was one of the good time spent of my Monday. hahahaha! Work was hardworking today. Hurt myself whle doing VM. Carrying all those heavy metal bars and guess what, Sales coming again! OMG, MS sales are so god damn rocking! the prices of all the clothes i used to adore marked down till so lowwwww. Eg; like 49$, now: 19$ ONLY!! So do drop by MS Paragon okay? Say hi to the clothes, or me. HEHEHEHE!
After work was good time spent. :))) After 6 months, i finally met my old-time sweet gangsta boy? Sounds cute and secret this way. hehehehe... Will remain a secret from others/public i think? Cause its safer this way, i feel. However, i feel sooooo much happier and better after meeting you whoever! Thank you very much. And i made a new friend today and he is as sweet as his face. :))

Okay i am happy at home today. Talked well with mom and sis today. Its hard nowdays idk why but tonight was good. :)) And i am super happy, i finally had the courage to tell mom im gonna tak my bike. hahahaha! I know all mom would be worried but i'd be safe. Rest assured mama love ok? :)) Enrolling tomorrow after work. And i'd be meeting my girl or hopefully maybe my gangsta boy? hehe :))

Pic from DblO previously;

the rest in FB! Hahaha, i love my party people. :))

yakyakyak

Its almost 4 and im still at home waiting for someone to wake up or maybe he just cant be bothered. hahahaha! yes, just waiting. not hoping or anything. i think ill wait for Aisyah to finish school and meet her after that for dinner or what. lol! byes...

I'll call you when im sober.

Back from work bout an hour ago. Was drizzling in the evening when i stepped in to work, and with Paragon's air-con, i swear it was like freezer in there. But i loved the chilly feeling when i go out to the open to fag. The adreneline rush...

Met Aisyah before work because i desperately needed my pain-killer just now. Yes, her. Thank you darling; never fail to cheer me up. :)) I think its due time i take your advice darling. You'll help me right? Cause you know its hard for me to do like 'that'. Like pretend i dont care bout them. Hahahah! Weak ah weak. loll! I'll manage however. Right Diia? Yes, chins up missy!

Currently i dont really believe in faith and hope. Sad, so do i actually fail myself as an ex-IJ girl? Oh fuck yes, who gives a fucking shit huh!

okbye.

Could it be... that the grass is always green.

Okay, i ditched work today. Was too exhausted from yesterday's event & studying! hehehehe... Which of cos dragged till in the early morning. Plus, i fucking loss my voice right after the party. Must have been drinking too much, the heaty-ness burned my already sore throat. hahahah! clever, i know. -.-'''
Flu and cough is not getting any better tho...sucks. Went along with two of Aisyah's friend. So yay!, i met new people. Lovely boys, wink wink! :p hehehehe... Powerhouse is invaded with alot of ugly and weird Chinese! Sorry, but no offence ya. Ha, haha ha.
So H is not meeting me today, again! Like i predicted he'd ditched me...tired already luhh. hoho! But i didnt mind tho, i have my girl. :)) Okay, i hope to see some people tonight. Have a nice day!

xoxo, diia.

You'll find yourself alone...

Should I let you fall? Lose it all?
So maybe you can remember yourself.
Can't keep believing, We're only deceiving ourselves .
And I'm sick of the lie, And you're too late.

How could I have burned paradise?
How could I - you were never mine.

For two separate being- one i've love and another, i love, still, always.

I believed, that we should never hope for something too much. Too much that we forget about all the possibilities that it wont...happen. Everything goes visiersa, right? maybe, maybe not everything tho. hahahaha! Ookay i should cut the crap.

Work was alright today. Aena and Chacha surprised me in front of my shop and i had my hour break with them at Macs. :)) But my flu and cough aint going anywhere soon i guess? And Zac was being a sweetheart today to take my temperature. Thank you! Lucky im alright, then. It does keep me wondering tho what will i do without my Ben Sherman boys?! Hahaha. And mom fetched me from work today at night, i love you! hehehe. That's all that happened today.

Im hoping for a better weekend with my girl, my boys. And currently the two most important boys in my life, my bestfriend & my current date.
Yes, funny how i never seem to can pull myself out of this love game. Fuck of well...

punches!

Unwell.

Omg my throat is getting real worst, my cough is hurting my throat each time a cough and of cos, the flu is getting pretty much verrrrry irritating. It was almost 1am yesterday when mom pester me to go to the docs cos my heart was beating fast as catching a train and i was having trouble breathing properly. But i was already dozing of so i couldnt much be bothered to get up. Oh sharks man, what is happening to me? I hope this thing happening, is just me being sick, just sick, you know the normal sick. And NOT this H1N1 thingy! :((( Ive yet to visit the docs today but see first luhh. Lucky today im off and im not sure if i can make it to work tomorrow. And ive to study for my re-taking, so everything bad that is affecting my health, please please go away! :))

Oh and mom locked me in the house today. Im not allowed to go anywhere today at all. And im cashless! So there's no point too. And my ppd has zero value so practically, today sucks. hahaha! But, ill find something to do, i hope. Like i always do. okay den bye bye.. :)

Friends, not foes.

I am falling sicker by the second, sucks. Now, im down with flu, fever, cough and sore throat. :(
And i havent visited the doctor, yet. Yes,its been ermmm 3 days since i've fallen ill. hahahaha! And now im getting blurry visions. Maybe due to my heatyness. Ahiyyyo! Had to bail out from work early today just now cos could'nt stand long enough to work. ehheh!

Met Aena after work tho to catch up on alot of things. Which after walked up to T.W to meet Z. Bumped into the boys awhile while waiting. But thanks to them all, i feel much much better, happy & occupied from thinking bout some disturbing thoughts. Their lame jokes and funny actics got me crankin' up for sure the whole time of my presence there. Love love you guys!! xo. Havent met my significant other for almost 3 weeks now and i miss you! Hope to see you as promised, soooo looking forward to it. :) People change, future changes. No one can ever have a promising one! right? Right.

But for the better, ive been spending more time with my girl and im lovin' it! Old times babbbby... Introduced her to my boys and we're enjoying youth to the fullest. And more that have yet to come! Oh and Tuesday, ive yet to decide to bring whoever to my double date with Aena and Danny. "Jgn jadi cam aku, kan susah cb! hahahaha." What to do, people change, busyyyyyy mah. hahahah!

k la, bye chiiikodok!

You're gonna go far kid.

Okay i sorta think im catching a flu sooon. And i havent been sleeping well, i guess? I go with meaningless dreams and yet i sleep so soundlessly, but i wake up with my eye bags getting worst each growing day! So somebody please explain to me why this is happening?! aiyoo.

(Look at my eye bags!!! -.-''')
well at times i come to think, that its naturally there..loll!

Too much is revolving in my complicated life and im too sure if i can cope anymore. Cause i feel like giving up on all the things i believed in? But at the same time, im quite satisfied with the life im living now. hahahah! aiyooo i must be one hell of a confuse kiddo at this point. lol!!
Oh havent i just mentioned i just received my entry proof by mail for re-taking my maths and science Os. And my examination hall is in guess where?!! CLEMENTI TOWN SS!!! hahahahaha, i know no one there! But lucky its right behind my house there. phew! But still, omg. Dont want to think bout it. Hahahaha! Okay chaaox people!

xxoo.

I lost my Serenade.

Im finally decided to tell. & maybe doing this is best. maybe? But im happy now, at least. Slowly...my heart is actually healing from the many encounters that are not at all fun. Im trying not to turn to my abnormality attitude, and yes feeling lonely is not at all new to me. This could be for the better of my health and soul. I hope so...

However, the ex-lover will always and shall always be my bestest friend and a dear to me. Time will tell and cross my fingers, things will turn for the better. :))

Life's like a roller-coaster ride.

hell-o blogger! ha, ha. Okay idk why but i feel the urge to wake up early today. Maybe because i planned to wash my hair this morning and you know, i dont like to go out of the house with wet hair or looked like they've just been washed! hahahaha leceh ah... I'm working soon at 10.30am sooon. And i cant wait for after work today. Z is fetching me! I wonder how things move so fast, come and go. No doubt is scary as hell, nerve-wracking!!! Life...nothing is ever promising to stay the same. The outcome is all up to us yes? :) If they can lie straight in our face, why cant us right? 'Doing back' is never part of my dictionary but i came to realise, to a certain extend, it does work for a wake up call. But what happens during the proses is never mine to control. He hehe hee...

So...its Monday today. The previous week started of bad but it ended pretty much sweet. :))
My life is so happening...no not in 'that' way. hahaha! Tho, i ended the week with lots of bruse marks and patches and more over, my body is aching as bad. Haizxzxzxz! The Sentosa lust party izzit called? yeah that event thingy @ Siloso beach.., was good. Had lotsa fun and bumped into some veryyyyyyyy old friends and made a handful of new friends. Nice people but crazy. hehehehe... And yesterday i met my childhood friend since primary 1, Nicole! Chilled at AMK drinking icelemontea, fags, and played cards. hahaha! Miss those times man...haiiiihaha.

Okay man, im off to do some house keeping. Morning again! Have a nice day ya?! xx

blood.

Bum bum bum bum bum

I'm home and shagged. Today was great and i can still feel the exhaustion from yesterday night. Hhaha! We had fucking fun right Aisyah? We deserved it! Lol. Shall again? Soon!!

nitez.

Girls just wanna have fu-uun-n-n-n!

Its Wednesday. Working late today, 6.30-9pm. Which after im meeting my girl to partyyyyyy! hahahaha, celebrate singles. Lol!! Lucky thing she's crashing my crib tonight so yeah makes things easier..haha! But i got work the next day, morn! But only till 1pm. And finally, would be meeting Helmy in idk?, almost a week?! Hope he does'nt cancels again with some stupid reasons.

And yeah the start of this week has been too much for me to handle so i'd figure out tonight might be good for me and my health and mental, hahaha! I finally decided to talked things out with mom yesterday and i found out that for the past 7 years, i have not moved on.Maybe i will never? Maybe i miss and still hoping for the past to come back. But i know it will never... and i'll cope. :)) I feel much better now that mom knows the truth and i meant all good intention and i should try not to keep up on my bad habit of sneaking. Ok things are working out slowly...

Okay im off to do house keeping. Chaox!

Friends and foes...

Somehow, im really not feeling good today. My mind is all over the place and my heart is unsettled. How bad can this get right? right?! Yesterday night was a bummer. Too much to handle but i managed, still feeling like shit tho! Ive decided that some friends are just not meant to stay friends and some enemies and born to be friends of the enemies. Its complicated enough yes? haha! And i feel much better to have one less mistake/regret of my shoulder. Chins up Diia! :)

And the midnight got worse for me tho. Imagine...

What if the one person you lived for, turn their back on you?
What if they swore to you they were telling the truth and you still knew it was a lie?
What if they forgot all about you for that very one night, when you need them most?
What if they didnt seem to care even tho you were crying otf begging for them to keep you company?
What if they left you all alone...

Would you stay or would you leave...?

passing shadows.

Sup! Saturday night is lazy and shagged. Work was passing real slow tonight and i, was most of the time mentally else where! HAHAHA. And i was so careless today i forgot to bring my uniform to work! Lucky have extra. heheheh! Time before work was so much more fun-ner! Watched Kongfu Panda this time at my girl's home and had Soto Ayam. yummmmy!!

Oh well im working morning tomorrow which after im meeting my girl again. We're spending time at hr uncle's condo tomorro night. Everyone's gonna be there, said her. lol!! I guess i'll be growing fatter. Food food and more food there! heheheheh yay. Helmy's too busy nowdays with his firefighter friends, i guess. And Khai is off to Jb. And Aena is shifted to Raffles. Ahhhhh people are moving away so slowly. I hate this feeling...this knowing. :( But my girl is always here with me and im thankful. I love you Aisyah! hahahaha. Okay tututs, nights!

x
o
x
o.

Good girls gone bad.

Hello Saturday! Its midnight now. Gosh wonder how fast time flew by. This week has really been great. Been keeping myself happy and contented yes? :) The people i need, has been with me all along. Fall backs are normal, but i get up yeah. However, ive been leading quite a unhealthy cum fun life this few days. Cut down on my fags but been drinking quite a lil. Been heading to Indochine often recently thats why! hehehe... But im happy and having so thats what matters right? But im goos at taking care of myself so not too much worries about myself. haha! And im proud of myself to have spent good time with both Helmy and Aisyah. love love love you both!!! Oh and i finally met my rachel recently @ NYP otw to pick my girl up from school. :))) miss her! I miss schooling tho! grrrr...

So anyway, im going over Aisyah's house tomorrow before work for... Yes again, movie marathon!! hahahaha... Helmy's working so i cant meet him. Sad. And now im waiting for someone to call(K!), expecting. hehehe... Dont know if he's calling. But ill still hope...lol! Okay im off, night juggies!

"Boys and girls, they pretend too much."

Almost midnight. And im still online plus the tv's still on. Fuck, i promised myself to crash in early today but aha, guess i failed to. LOL! Anyway work's @ 6pm tomorrow so no worries. Arhhhhh... my right eyeball is hurting each time i blinked! Yeah.. the fucking fag ash went into my eye just now evening after work. I hope i dont wake up with a swollen or sore eye tomorrow. Its been tearing for hours now. :((

Sooo, life's been better. I guess? Hahaha! Not minding too much anyways. Its a waste of errrr of everything me/or mine. lol! Boys and girls, they pretend too much. But never want to be guilty. Always pushing the blame on me... -.-''' Fucking cuntdick faces!

Well... i feel much better this past 2 days. Maybe someone's helping. Heeeee~ :)

XOXO!

Eaten?

Its Sunday dawn. I just finished eating my Mac delivery. Famished! hehehe... :)
First i'm working morning shift tomorrow and i know i should be sleeping but no. Hhaha! Been crashing in very late, this few days. And i swear my eye bags are accumulating! lol. But who cares right?!
Arhhhh i need a new camera, i swear my fb pics are so boring! Cb ahhh kena stolen. :( Long ago story. hahahahaha! Anyway, im keeping myself occupied chatting with Khai on MSN. lucky got him to layan me! xoxo you! hehehehe. Oh yayyyy $$$ come in ready anyway. BUT!, must save. Im getting my bike licence this mth yes? YEAH. My words are not making sense to me now. Blanked.

xxo,diia.

i aint your motha fucking princess! :)

Its 1am now and i just got home but 45min ago. Work was tiring today, ohhh maybe its just me? haha.

This days, my mind has been doing alot of unnecessary thinking. Thanks to the dicks out there! My eyes are like swelling up. Lack of rest and the tears that they've caused! But not blaming anyone. ha ha? I just feel that now, there is of no use being so dedicated or nice to someone. Because well of cos, most times, you dont get being treated nicely in return. so why bother right? FUCK. Its like getting blamed for being nice? What nonsense?! And you feel being used. When all we do is be there when someone need us, but we'd be alone at times when we're the one at need of someone. And all you get in return is loneliness. Well...shit happens.
Fuck all those motha fucking heartless! (do you feel the pinch, then it might be you im referring to. HA HA ha, ha!)

peace, OUT!

And it's time you just face it, don't pretend

How can I decide what's right

When you're clouding up my mind?

I can't win your losing fight

All the time.

Not gonna ever own what's mine

When you're always taking sides

But you won't take away my pride.

No, not this time...

Not this time...

How did we get here?

When I used to know you so well.

But how did we get here?

Well, I think I know.

The truth is hiding in your eyes

And it's hanging on your tongue.

Just boiling in my blood.

But you think that I can't see

What kind of man that you are,

If you're a man at all.

Well, I will figure this one out

On my own.

(I'm screaming, "I love you so.")

On my own.

(My thoughts you can't decode)

How did we get here?

When I used to know you so well, yeah.

But how did we get here?

Well, I think I know.

Do you see what we've done?

We've gone and made such foolsOf ourselves.

Do you see what we've done?

We've gone and made such foolsOf ourselves.

Yeah. Yeah.

How did we get here?

When I used to know you so well, yeah, yeah.

How did we get here?

When I used to know you so well.

I think I know.

I think I know.

There is something I see in you.

It might kill me.

I want it to be true.

Paramore- Decode

fullstop

home-e.

Its... 2:34pm now on my clock. Off on a Monday as usually but today's Monday really is passing...mmmmm. Not slow not fast, but its just me. I'm feeling so fucking tired today man! And good news, im gonna spend the weekend @ grandma's. hehehehe... Since uncle's gone off to Malaysia AGAIN, for some bike racong thingy. Talked to granny bout taking my bike license this month. But again, i get the same reaction as mom. But better...haha! Why are mom and some others sooooo against this thing named 'motorcycles'?? Oh well. Its lazy today and ive been pampering my taste buds with Haagen-Daz, summer berries& cream with a continuous serires of Burn Notice on FOXCRIME & with a lil bit of MTV. lolol! Boyfriend is busy at station and i guess if he cant pay enough attention to me this afternoon or worst, till the night...i'll most probably keep myself preoccupied with such hmmm entertainment. I miss you lovely! Oh wait.. speak of the angel.. a text message from, 'a lover'. Yeah that's him!

Happy Monday!

ya da yada!

Sapppppppp! @ grandma house now. Decided to crash here for two days. haha... I'm so shagged! I seriously need alot of rest. :)) Yayyy finally tomorrow's off. LOL.

Just now was great. In a long time, i finally spent good time with my boyfriend. (^_^) Ate ALOT today after the two day starvation. hehehehehe... Oh and my stomach starting its haywire again! My head is much better but still aches. Fuck all this sickness! grrrrrr. Okay, i think im off to watch tv now. Dunno what to type. BYE!

Second post for the day. One thing has not changed since morning; my fucking headache! :(
Worked only for awhile and spent most time in the store resting. Wasnt strong enough to fight the pain! ughh... i should be resting now tho, lol!!

Tomorrow's saturday and im working @ 3pm till closing. Bad cos bf's off tomorrow and i cant meet him, but he'll most prolly be zzz at home. so okay. Good cos im keeping myself occupied, instead off roaming ard town/anywhere, CASHLESS! hahahahaha, looking forward for the 7th again... Hope my headache will go away by tonight while im sleeping. Its been 3 days i woke up with a headache, just by lifting up my head from my pillow. How sickening! >:(

And i promise myself to crash in early today!! Its almost ten. Maybe 11? or 10.30? We'll see, maybe straight after talking to Helmy. Yeah.. Finally in a longgggg time, im home alone! Nothing bad, just miss having time for myself and so, i accomplished it today. hahaha...

goodnight fellas.

ha ha he he ha ha hu...

My head is in throbbing pain right now this very morning. Been straight two day im waking up to this fucking pain. Shit! I think i really need to go for another check up, again! Its been half a year ago since the day i visited SGH. What's wrong with me? Have my unwanted wish really come true? Has God listen to me this time? No not this, please. Or i could.. *inhale deeply to reflect for some seconds* yes?

Yesterday was one of the worst days of my life. Things turn way unexpected but i managed however it is. Wasnt myself at work and it was soooooo easy for everyone to spot that! Why is my emotions so easily depicted?!! I wasnt so good at keeping it secret i guess. But neither am i good at verbally expressing it. So, im pretty much predictable. No, or shld i say readable, this time only. Yeah. Okay over it...

Hmmm there's one more thing, im starting to miss all my friends. Yeah, secondary. Havent been finding time for them lately. I hardly have time for myself. Maybe i got this feeling, i dont want to be alone anymore, at least, not at this moment. I miss hangin' out in big groups, though im never a favourite about this. I prefer a '1to1' date, all know! hahahaha... But, i really miss being all that girl thats crazy, fun, childish, irritating and a lil bit of bitchy! Lately i noticed myself changing to such a reserved person. Too serious for my kind. I ought to let it out, but to whom? with whom and how? Fuck la cb kia! Have fun Diia, c'mon! -.-'''

Okay, i have to really get ready for work. I hope today will be fun at work. And my fags, finished. So i hope not to let emotions get to them again... I really havent categorize this as a habit or addiction. Or never? Really because im not. Okay la bye!

Im out of skills to entertain my unwelcomed fans.

Seems like everything's going kay o kay this while. Been getting better rest than the week before, had it managed. Well done. Need to start on my revision very soon tho, slacksoattitude havent been helping much! pfffffffft~

Im @ my girl's crib. Movie marathon, again! And im lovin' it. hehehehe... Watched Never Back Down this time round. Awesome kissass movie! Go check it out fellas. Boyfriend bailed me out on this evening's plan. ha? He fell sick, sadness. Get well soon sweetheart! xxxxxxo. Ily, you know.

I dont really get this thing going down ard girls and boys. Seriously?! This thing called, 'cheating on the one we Thought we loved.' Well im not contributing myself to this game. And dont thank people pulling me into this. This is just a pondering post. Nothing more than that. hahahaha ha...

I'm meeting Aena later tonight and i'm missing my boyfriend so much. And im up for another movie with my girl now so chao people! ^_^v

ha?

I hope all the nonsense would end yesterday, or lessen much its okay enough. Because we would never throw away the past when we had the future planning. Cos the best key to patience is acceptance, Never tolerance.

Fuck, im starting my craps soon i guess? please go away please please! got work @ 6pm later. baby should be waking up soon i hope. see you verrrrrry soon pokerface.

Okay so Kris won A.I. Even we all know Adam had the best voice. But Kris not bad himself yes, very charming voice. Both will go far for sure. Hahahaha okay i sound so boring now.

No mood blog la bye.

Blur blur

Its not an addiction, its a stress reliever. fuck ok

My eye bags are looking more obvious, to me! But i swear the strains is worst like the veins in your eyes are burning like that. I havent slept since yesterday and the smokes have been making the burning feeling worst. Which i cant actually avoid, i think? lol.

Well the past two days have been good and bad. Bad because my daily habit of crying... And bla bla bla. Good because yesterday i spent my day with my girl chilling almost everywhere. Catched up with lotsa stuffs. And finally chilled IndoChin together! HAha.
Today was with my boyfriend and well sorta spent quality time in the end part, like fi-nal-ly!

Working has been taking up most of my time. Just this month schedule i hope! Sale ah sale. Cb the customers ahhhhhh! Okay my baby is calling in awhile so i gotta go...

BYECBHEEEBYE.

Im anti-social and i like it this way. Ha~

Back. Exhaustion stole me from the online life but its okay. These fags, its like a nightmare came true. Hasnt stop, cant stop, since. All these blow fucking my mind has gotten me all bad habits. Tryna stop but lets see who wins ok? Fuck it. Wont blame the starter of this but the situation of life that has gotten worse,not technically. Its invisible but i can feel it...

I need cash desperately. Wasted alot of it on unnecessary stuffs, one like this one and more, regretted already. Hmmph! Still gotta head down central to run some errands for mom and im so tired already!!!! and Finally, i got a lil bit better rest/sleep at night and got to wake up slightly late today. Home alone and off today = PEACE. hahahaha...

Boyfriend has gone missing alot this few days. No, still together... Ha! The lover is sick and cant move much and me, busy with this month's working schedule. Suck, i know, what to do right bitch. Tuesday tomorro and work's till 1 only. Start at opening which is cool. But im only looking forward to the part where he fetch me. His face, just makes the day grow more beautiful. And where had my girl gone to? Everyone's so busy nowdays. Myself too. In actual fact, i only have two great people to juggle around. Now , three actually. HA! And i cant imagine the chaos of other teenage life of having such a humongous circle of close friends. Or maybe, its just for the pleasure of fame or record breaking. Lame but true people. Suckers for fakers. Oh fyi, this is not a hate post to anyone, its just a ponder of mine. Peace yaw...

Aite, xoxo.

Do do you have a first aid kit...?

Time check: 1:00am exact.
Woahhh, tired or what tonight?! Wonder what im still still up till now. Home alone and discovered no ones coming home today. Sad sad me... Friday and Sat night was great. Went Cash studio on both nights. Friday after work at 1030pm, head down to Cash with Aena, Zac, Tim & his friend. Is and Dan came afterwards. Too bad i had to leave earliest and got hold up by a few fuckards, yes drunk mats! Im fine though, experience nightmare st8 in the face for few minutes there. Thank God im okay! HAHAHAHA! Love love my Ben Sherman boys and Miss Selfringe girl. <3

Today was wonderful. Celebrate our 32nd month anniversary! Babbbbby, i love you. Hope you love the Fred Perry belt i surprised you with. hehehe:)) And everything was lovely. Met my girl Aisyah afterwards in the evening tho. Went to sing sing and Cash, again. Hahaha, i swear we went crrrr-aa-zy! lol. Fun! And it was late and all were tired so.....HOME. fuck its Sat and all sway so tired.

So tomorro is Sunday and oh no i think im in trouble? No one knows but i have a secret. A small but its wrong one. Fuck. Oh who cares...

I dont do funny business.

Okay, i just finished watching Twilight on the net. Hahaha, just so suddenly missed that movie. And i still remember when i watched it 3 times at the cinema when Twilight was showing in cinemas. HAHAHA! Twice with my boyfriend and once with ermmm someone history. So work's @ 6pm later. And i gotta go clean up the house first before heading out if not the big mouth is gonna...okay stop there Diia! Hhahaha... And i'm buying Macs for Aena later at work. Gotta catch up with my girl.

I'm looking forward to after work today. Hush... Too bad my boyfriend is working today. Wish i could kidnap him for tonight from station to have fun with me, tonight. Its not the same without him. But chin's up! I'll have him to myself on the Saturday night. I love you baby. All to myself... meowwww! Okay, say HI to me if you people spot me outside tonight.

Da da bu dee da ba dumm...

Hi, im kinda back? Or have i even gone missing? idk but some might ask. Lol... Pardon me for the short-term 'missing in action'. Wasnt actually busy with work, no no not at all. Lappy just got back from service yesterday. And me, ive been really unwell lately. Fever has been running up and down for the pass few days. And headaches, making my brain feels like exploding any moment! UGH. And have been puking since Friday. Almost everywhere!! And even tho nothing goes in...it still comes out! From the mouth i mean. And NO, its not something to be proud of like a record like that. Fuck, i swear feeling like this scares me ALOT. But lucky, it has gotten alot better. I haven puke since today? for now at least. But still a fact that my brain still feels like its blowing off! :( And i just found a reason that maybe this is all happening to be because of my wisdom tooth that is actually growing bigger every time i checked it! Ugh this tiny fellerrr... And i told mom and HELL, she might sent me off to get it operated! Okay panic. -.-

So tomorrow's Friday and mom's going up to KL with some friends. Gonna be nightmare without her at home!!! It feels weird nowdays. And idk why too.. *screams* Maybe i'll go crash my girl's place. I should. And today's the 7th. I'm glad and my purse is contented. Haha, finally! Time to enjoy myself...! Chao.

This is no more a misunderstanding. Its a first class joke.

May's a few hours away and this thought of the month May coming... it shudders me. Not anything bad but, wow. I did'nt actually realise to keep track of the time that passes by. I'm getting older every second that passes by and that's good and bad and all but i haven't really achieve much i must say. Education wise i meant. It's important i wont deny. The fact of having to waste another year to retake the papers sucks. The fact that school's up next year(if i qualify), is worst. Oh, shall i say i'll give this future stressing qualification thingy a pause! Not all thing is this world have to do with papers. Some people in this life seems to be doing well, even without school. Maybe they have good luck on thier side. I pray i do. HEEE heh~

Today at work was mundane. Was secretly wishing time to fast forward for me until the part where boyfriend fetch me from work. However, Is came in and cause a din with our uncontrollable laughters. I was stressing him about how to make my eyes look bigger since i wont deny they are small. He could'nt agree more with me. -.-''' Thanks Is! ugh. He gave me a smokey eyes make-over which i made me felt i belonged to the fashion world. Dramaaaaaa... hehehehe! Work is always fun with that boy well err her? hehehhee. Love love!

The short time spent with my boyfriend was never surprising lovely. Love having him by my side. Come to a thought, we're like magnets. You know like north-south poles. Hehehehe cheekky! We finally finished the worst habits. "Between us okay hon!" I love you. Too bad i had to let him return to his mom by 9pm. Some family time together, AGAIN! No... im not the possessive gf over bf over his mom. Just well i cant say this but i'll force this out from me. Just ermmmm nonsensically jealous of the fact. okay shuts.

Oh! Criminal minds on tv now. Gtg byeeeeee...

...

imy.

Ditched work today. i guessed im too tired. Met my boyfriend yesterday night after work and im glad i killed my cravings for his hugs and kisses. I know, you can call Us the clingy type. Hehe.
Today, is family day. Going to grandma's place soon in the afternoon and meeting mom after her work. Boyfriend is working today and i already miss him.

I've been pondering to get a new job with higher pay. Gosh! hehehehehe... And i miss school life.

Shake-egg your head sha-ake-ake your head

Im gonna sum uppp this week; Back-break-in-in' fuck! Hehehehe, it aint so bad as it sounds no? First part of the week was potentially depressed? So it got better... Saturday was 'Girls wanna have fun' Party @ Miss Selfridge PGN. Almost broke my back serving the 'woah' amount of customers! Lucky my shift ended at 7 night. Met Ayid after work with the rest of the boys(yay new friends!) since my boy wanted to stay home like a goodie, up for his test. Drank Chivas @ taka garden. Ooops... i had a lil too much! Took the almost last bus alone, tipsy! Gosh i could only imagine how i'd managed? But of cos, i missed my stop which lead me all the way to the interchange and had to walk home alone like a drunk bitch. But i got a hang of myself. dude?! I'm cool okay? fuck. HAHAHA!! Got a hang-over in the morning and i had to force myself to wake up for work this morning... Working time flew pass fast, thank God! And Zac still owe me my Minnie mouse drawing, thanks to Is, he just had to doodle-destroy on Zac's art specially made for me! I think. Ahuehuehue...Love love the Ben Sherman's boys! And my Miss S's girls,(excluding the supervisor!).

And another bummer, I think i need a make over!!! Fuck, been too busy to pamper myself or should i say manage myself?! I think i look like a slacker nowdays...shitxz! Dont even have the mood to put proper make up for work. Who cares how i look like right? UGH. Cant wait for the 7th. Time please fast forward for me? not gonna happen, i know so shut up bitch. And i need to download more songs...random!

De sir e

'He's like an addiction. Like a bad bad habit. Like a taste i can never stop craving for. Like it lingers...just calling my name. Like a prayer...'

I'm hooked onto the feeling. I like its hallucination, the numbness. The world- seems like its spinning fast. No, its just my head. Its a private time for myself, And only with him. But its bad and i should never try again, unless i want to remind myself of the feeling. His promise... i must remember.

Like a personal drug;

2006;

2009;

Please stay, don't go. I love you...