Picnic.

i wasnt posted anywhere thru JAE. its sad but yeah, expected. ive regretted my mistakes but no regrets now. life's gotta keep going. RIGHT? :) now, i just gotta wait for DAE. *cross fingers*

so today was g-r-e-a-t! the surprise i had planned for baby worked out exactly the way i want it.
i baked pizza for baby, beef & chicken. baby really had no idea what was going on until we finally arrived @ FCPark. yeah?! its a picnic! finally we got our picnic, hehehe! was so quiet, so personal, so lovely, so romantic, so in love. we sat on the mat and lay down flat next to one another. the moment was so perfectly perfect. ^_____^v

met mama in the afternoon, to bugis. ate dinner and finally bought my long khakis pants. bought one for baby too! YAYYY. :)) HAHAHA, i'm contented today.

oh, "GET WELL SOON BABY!, yes. "

cause i cant without you.

second time blogging today! -.-

my boyfriend is really busy at work, and i feel left alone for today. :(
the conversations/texting havent been good today & he doesnt even spare a thought for me, my feelings. i guess i'll just have to understand.
i miss you alot, only i know. HAIXZ.

its time i erase.

BORED BORED BORED!

yeah? so im stuck at home. fuck-i swear i need a job! yes yes, im blabbling bout this prob again. baby's at work and he's busy now. which means ill just have to stare and wait for a text msg. i miss him so much already.

oh!, and i forgot to mention that ystd, i did something to my HP with the help(?) of my boyfriend. guess what?! YEAH!, i did a 'spring cleaning' on my contact list. HAHAHAH yes, i decided to delete off MOST my previous 'boys in-contact/flings' off my list. i just realise that its of no use of K-I-T with you guys since 'some' just wont stop flirting/trying luck. so, since i figured you guys wont stop, might as well i take a move to delete. so if (whoever) reading this and you got a great feeling that youre one of 'them' whom i deleted, dont bother calling or texting. im not entertaining. if you wanna, i have MS/friendster/FB. contact me there. i know, im being arrogant- but hey stupid!, im attached(!!!). sincere boy friends(you guys shld know who you are), no need to worry, youre saved. im sick and tired, bill's booming anyway. this will definately help. :) satisfied.

anyway~ ive been much frustrated over my hair. its time to trim them. really! -.-'''
oh and HEY!, im turning 18 soooon in feb! gosh so fast, 14 more days?! cant wait what baby's got instored for me. i love his surprises. and haven i mentioned enough;

HELMY! I LOVE YOU SO MUCH! ♥

goodbye my dear-
baby just went out of my crib to head home. somehow, sometimes i wish we stayed much much closer. so that time is not much wasted to travel back home. he to the east, her to the west. :) ily hon.
met baby today in the afternoon. town. we were waiting for my girl to come-all the way from school. missed her truckloads. had lunch together to catch up! happy bestfriends day. :)

i miss all my friends. close ones. ^__^v

was it worth it? yes.

i just got back bout 2 hours ago, its 8pm now. how fast can time pass by? today, i met my baby. met him at Tam before we both head down to ECP for a mini picnic. yes, just us two. place was so packed so we both decided to head 'somewhere' else. away from public. away from chaos.

i felt very HAPPY indeed today. maybe some chances are worth taking, just maybe.- i just hope it'll last forever, i will make it forever.

nothing that i had to worry today. everything went well today. YAY!
tomorro's a brand new day- always wishing for a good one. :)

HAPPY CNY!

good afternoon lovely heads. first, Happy CNY to all. :)
today's gonna be quite dull i think? idk. came home late ystd; 3am. had our small reunion dinner @ Long's hse cos guest from Penang came. toured them ard Sg during the late night/wee morn. boat quay, marina, merlion park, esplanade and then straight to mustafa.(oh and i finally checked out my KS360. gosh! so kawaii sia. mom was just ignoring me. PFFT-.-''') pretty much shagged. crashed in bout 4am as mom was talking some stuffs with me.
really, my mind's kinda caught up on alot of personal issues right now and i guess ill deal with it myself. close ones arent helping either. oh well... but im cool, i hope. :)

The earth we live in today.
Is never ever gonna be the same.
If we don't wake up and make a change.

Am I all alone.
Is there anybody out there hearing my song.
Is anybody home.
Is there anybody out there feeling that something's wrong.

What good is a heart if there ain't love in it.
What good are your eyes if you ain't got vision.
What good is the world if we can't all fit in.
See all along, we ain't that different.
All tryna get by and raise our children.
Love and pain, yeah we share the same feelings.

Give me the chance.
Give love a chance.
Give you and me a chance.
I need to know.
Am I alone.

(Claude Kelly- Alone)
an old song, but its very meaningful. check it out!

Stay. . .

i feel much better
at least i want to be.
everything seems fine right now

i'll stay here and watch you change;

for the better.

im happy
cos im still with you.
and ill pray

for it to be forever.

♥

do i mean this?

i fell in love with a disaster.

youre a BIG FAT liar.
youre such a coward of your own lies.
youre a hypocrite.
youre a great disappointment to your lovely mom and me.
youre such a selfish bastard.
youre a bad friend.
youre the worse bestfriend.
a boyfrend? oh puh-leaseeeee, J O K I N G right?! (if only he change? it'll take a decade i tell ya!)

all NICE-WORTHY girls out there, if you ever know this kind of it whom you sadly fell deeply sensually in love with, they are not worth it. DUMB them! cos they are just gonna end up ruining your life. they will sweet talk you, tell you everything you want to hear BUT its not sincere.(even if they say they are.) they're world's number 1 losers. they are typical.

T Y P I C AL.

Chasing Shadows.

(this is my Hp's wallpaper for now.^_^)

im kinda quite confuse right now. the position youre putting me, it seems to always be less priority. i dont even know why im that clingy on to you, youre the wan doin all the chasing always anyway.
i give my all to you always.
eventho at times i just wanna walk away for good, i couldnt.
we used to be so happy,
so fun,
so talkative,
so fight less.
where have that all gone?
dont tell me its my bad for leaving it all behind when i came home on the 1st?
you mean alot, i love you.
i do.
tell me if coming back was worth it. please?
tell me is not my time wasted.

Please tell me what we have is real.
I love you Suhelmy.

BLA.

went out with my girls today and had awesome fun and laughters! :)
went to the piercing/tattoo shop @ F.E and was thinking of my septum piercing and ear enlargements and, if can full arm tattoo. ughhhhhh, temptations are fatal! FUCK.
all that walking ard town made my legs all aching.
helmy came afterwards in the evening to meet me for dinner @ youth,

blabla.

Make time.

YEAP. i just got home awhile ago. got up early today to meet my boy at tam since he just got home from duty all tired and had to go for some CD talk at bb in the afternoon. so sweet of him make time for me so to have late breakfast/early lunch together @ TM. tnx loveeeee! <3
oh! and ive been looking out for new phones. just wondering when am i gonna actually get a NEW hp?!!! haiyahhh. im into this particular type of hp(i call it the gameboy hp, haha!) and it only seems or, maybe only i can find it in LG brand. real sleeeeeeek and KAWAII ler. i wan i wan.

(nahhhhhh!, this is the kawaii wan. so cute right?! i want this!)

(this one is more of a classic design, too formal i feel? lol! but still chio.)

bye!

Customise.

this is the second time im blogging today! yes, indeed im really that bored and aint got ntn much interesting to do. how sad?
okay so i bought Kfc instead just now and bloody hell thats not even a single locksmith shop at central! jialat sia make me walk and sweat like a pig only! PFFT.

so anyway, ive been on the net for hours, surfing the online skate shop plus listening to music. so me, my girl and boy decided to bring back our old days. yeah and i guess we'll be buying a deck sooon? havta save up alot of cash tho. haiyoooooh sometimes ah why cant money grow on the tree(???!!!) it'll cost like a bomb since we're deciding to buy diff parts of diff brands and screw it all together. however im just gonna get a CHEAPER-GOOD-brand deck-plain! instead of some fancy design on the back of it. ya cos i wanna customise my own initials/design on it. :) how exciting right?! HAHA! but the wheels or bearings all that, gonna be good. i supposed? ill ask the pro tho. im willing to learn more yeah? cos i find some people(friends/beginners) are too arrogant to even share basic stuffs. loll YPees! -.-

okay i shall stop here. getting a lil headache. i need food i think? even tho i ate already, as usual! HAHAHAHAHA. okay take care friends. loveee ya!
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its so usual.

today's pretty much mundane.
stuck here at home and pity, ive created no new plans for myself.
darling's on duty and poor boy is unwell. "get well soon okay dear?" xoooox. my girl is busy at school today and chiang got her own plans.
so i suppose im caught up in my crib for today. just finished watching a movie online and doing all the house chores & now ive got ntn to do. seriously! -.-'''
gotta walk up to central later/soon to duplicate the house keys since my bag got stolen(the keys were in there too) longgg time ago. knncb tt person! HAHAHA.
oh not forgetting i guess i wont be ordering Macs. since im gg central hmmm now?, i might as well just buy it there myself. oh wells, today's boring and i miss him ready. byeeeeeee~

Salt and lime.

*disconnected*. yupp i was just otf with an old friend. a surprising call tho, HAHA! :)

so anyway, today was really GREAT and well-spent. yes?
yeah, i went out with my favourite boy to Sentosa; Palawan. the weather was really really sunny and for a min there i was scared of getting darker than i already am. i guess? loll! we decided to chill at the Islander beach Bar. and i swear we were almost falling zzzzzzzz(!!!) hahaha. after all those Island Shotter(tequila+vodka shot) & Bloody Vodka(vodka+cranberry juice), calamari rings and wings. fuhhhhhhhh! and plus the wind were playing ard with us. put you to sleep mode i tell you! HAHAHAHHA. hours spent and i had to go home. how sad yeah? it was kinda a secret outing. cos ive been going out ALOT! heh.

(this was taken after we got back from sentosa. was playing ard with my webbie cam, loll!)

hmmm, i guess im staying home tomorro? or shall i ask my girl out? idk. i miss her already, plus i cant follow her on the KL trip this friday. and i guess she wont be going too. COS im not going!!!!!! UGH. *show angry face at someone!* -.-''' oh! helmy just called me bout a sec ago and haha he's going jamming with his bro. tot wanna zzzz skali jam. what only?! okay im looking forward to any plans tomorro. :) good night fellow readers. xoxo

tired bahh! HAHAHAHA. i swear i need to really take a break and rest well. and the main thing i need to STOP eating so much. -.-''' junks especially! been eating much lately, serious. BUT, i who cares???!!!! blaaaa.
okay so i just got home bout awhile ago. met Helmy in the noon at town and end up eating our fav; RAMEN TEN(you guys shld try it, for those who haven luhh.)
shopped around Far East and finally!, i bought my new Cheongsam. YAYYYYYYY! Black with pink floral prints.(VERY CHIOOOOOO.) it looks more casual tho so tt i dont just waste my $$$ buying it specailly for CNY but also can wear on any random day. :) satisfied.

Which after, we head down to Somerset;cine and chilled at the usual place for hours!!! its fun looking at all the diff kindda dressings/people walking pass-by. loll! and i kept on eating and eating and munching and slurping. AND day-dreaming! i cant help it you see, the wind relly got me hooked up. so Helmy was being quite silly with his pants today. Tu la, pandai nahh tak pakai belt, BODOHHHH! hahahah love you luhh! heh. quite a long day before we head back home. and of cos, the gentleman always being a gentleman, fetched me home. <3!

Makan Spree.

mood: HAPPY YIPPY!

yupp, im pretty much a happy kid today. met helmy in the noon @ my crib to go over to central to get my new atm card done. & YES!, im loaded today. YAYYYYY $$$$ came in. weeeheeee~ loll!

okay headed first to bugis to eat our famous mee pok wantan & fried fish noodle w soup.
and *ringring!*, my girl holla. asked if she could joined. so me and helm met aisyah after lunch. headed to town and did a lil shopping. yeahhhhh, so i decided not to spent to much. HAHAHA! bought a grey long sleeve top from cotton on. NICE :)))
which after we went over to Gelare! helmy had his banana split & me and aisyah had our waffle. then over to heeren, baby finally got his long sleeve; high-school pull over @ PD.
time fly pass super pass today. maybe we were having much fun? idk.

oh! not forgeting, we headed last to Youth Park for dinner. had stingray+kangkong& tomyam soup!!! YUMMMMMY. fucking bloated i tell you. today was like eating so freakin much. and then home.


oh tomorro im going out with mom to treat her @ Sakura or Nana Thai. & in the late afternoon to SCAPE for live and loaded. so see you there-anyone? HAHAHA. night!

Quick.

F tup.

F-off.

pissed, today was a fuck'd up ending.
i dont even get a hug? was waiting for a sec there.
SLAMMED! right in your face GO.

we had fun. but it didnt last long.
just f u c k it. -.-v

tho i miss you already. Xo


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Sweat in out.

awwwww youre so sweet rabbit wabbit! HAHAHA. i love you rach. + not forget cheng. <333! so

anyway today's plans with helmy to go OUT cancelled. -.- due to some inconvenience, haixz. so anyway his coming over to my crib instead!!! YAYYY. gonna cook lunch for tt boy. but first, before anything im going for jog. HEEEEWEEEHEH! gotta head to the bank @central to bank in my cheque after that. $$$$$$ yesssa finally. lol im bored now. okay enough, BYE. im off for a quick jog. :)

peace ya!

I want what i need.

i'm missing those bitchy times in high school alot.

i woke up to a dull noon today, until a text msg came in. "pay cheque's in, come collect." YAYYYYY! tt brightens up my whole afternoon. not only that, i got my girl to accompany me. she cheered me up and talked sense into my blocked-up mind. love you! so anyway met only for awhile since i had to rush home before mama gets home. idk why also? HAHA.

so ive been thinking what i shld do with my $$$. well, considering that this mth's pay aint that much.(!!!)FUCK. so i made myself my own SUPER-DUPER-FUKER-SHORT wishlist.

mp4 (any will do,just for temp i guess HA.)
fibre hair treatment + haircut and wash
DC shoe (must must!!!)
air-force nike (classic black)
dark grey cargo pants
adidas sweater- darkblue/pink
sweatpants
black palms
hand accessories
tees!
drop-off shoulders top

oh! and a new job!!! HAHA.
loll!, so tt's just a few of what i want/need.

well oh well, im meeting my favourite boy tomorro and i cant seem to wait. very much in love with that boy that's ever so skinny+cute! ^_^v

chaoxz people.

100% to remember my name.

to those whom i shut out so suddenly, im sorry. i feel like a loser. just give me time to rejuvenate.

big-time-loser. YES!, tts how i'd describe myself, well my situation now. *BIG BIG SIGH* results wasnt what i expected at all, really. this was more difficult than i imagine and actually thought I'd be able to cope with this feeling. i guessed wrong. everyone seemed happy. successful. what's wrong with me? can't just someone give me a chance? just one chance. how did this end up this way?, i did try my best. haizzz. they all think i dont even feel regret or sad or disappointed with myself. THEY THOUGHT WRONG.

well whatever it is, im not gonna give up. given the chance, ill work my butt off, promise.
i am going to be somewhere.



i am going to be someone- recognised.

Certifide bonkers.

morning morning! okay i cant seem to sleep after i was awaken my sister at 9am just now. HOW FRUSTRATING. -.-''' anyway, today's the big day! yes, my o level results. @ 2pm later. (arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh; nerve breakdown) LOL, jk only luhh. gonna meet helmy at hougang first to get my studs which i lost, ALL OF 'EM! pfffft. den head down to sengkang to school of cos! cb ahhhh why luhh school so far from home. HWEEEHEE. okay im currently stuck by boredom now waiting for helm to get home and call me. miss him many many. okay bye bye peeeeeps & ill see you ladies in school. <3

For tomorrow.

bored!!! guess im gonna slack home the whole day today. boyf's on duty today and im missing him already. HEHH! plus im getting real irritated tryin find the perfect/nicest blogskin BUT, i cant! fuckcbluhh. oh and tomorro's olevel result. *BITE NAILS* scary, scary, CAPITAL S-C-A-R-Y. shucks im crossing my fingers man(!!!) chaoxz.

On Feet.

*Phew* such a tiring day today and fun! went out with my Helmy today to celebrate. ate @ SAKURA like alot!!! WOAHHHHHH, full full and i swear i ate more than him. HEHEHEHE. than went ard far east and dear decided to buy the DC shoe i picked! blue, super sleeeeeeek! HAHAHAHA. i wanted one but havta wait for my $$$$$$. (-.-)''' so slowww. bought a new cap for himself and guess what i bought?! A NIKE sweat head band! white. yes, loveeeee it!!! YAYY. at least i bought something. and it cost $10++! cheap! chilled at Mc Cafe and the usual at night which after head home. SHAGGED. love love today. weeeeeeeeeeheeeeee~
k BYE.

Open house.

today was fun, two days straight! met my girlfriends for the first time like after prom!!! how long was that? HAHA. had so much fun! so rachel's 'secret' was cheng! AHAHAHA, how cute. love you both so much. when around town just window shopping and catching up on stuffs & as usual, NUM guys. (!!!) hehehehe. girls girls will always be girls. some pics we took...

so the next day, met up for poly open house. met up @ SP first. and yeah both cheng and chiang were droooooooling over how many hot guys there are in SP. hahahaha NYP scored 6 is to 1 final! HAHAHAHAHA! funny luhh yall. my boyfriend joined later on at NYP and we n=both stayed on a lil later tt night at NYP to catch, AVA & Plain sunset. UNPLANNED. which after we head home.

Help?

frustrating! okay, i cant seem to find a new job. and and, ystd's aim of me hunting for a new job failed, AGAIN. -.-''' met my favourite boy ystd and kinda just lepakkkkxz at his crib. how pig can we get? went out late afternoon and i head to head home ready cos one: my mom was nagging, two: CRAMPS cramps yes damn cramps! end up eating dinner at central's Macs. always! hahahah.

ok PFFFFFFFT. i need a job cos im broke! and this month's pay check on previous job is coming sooooon! so tts something to look out for. hmmm, i guess im lazing ard at home today. got housework to do like always wannn. *SIGH* and i woke up early to send some letter to the bank what fuck right. and when i get home, i cant even zzzzzzzz back! so anyone with job recommandations, tell me. HELPPPPPPPP! please.

Dilemma.

a new blog, a whole new chapters in life.
like woah!, ive been experiencing so much changes lately in life and right now, ive learn to slow down and stick with the people whom i know will always be here, with me. its scary to know how much i love taking risk knowing the concequences tho. STUPID huh?! maybe its just me right.
so anyway, 2009 has been quite a chance for me to start afresh? im starting to realise the ones would be there for you are those who have always been there, instead of someone whom you actually want.

its noon now and im supposed to be changing to make a move to helmy's crib atw at tam! yes, its cute how the two of us is spread over at each end of little spore, yet after almost 3 years, we're not even sick of it! HAHAHAHAHA. okay lame. -.-''' so im to be out by 45 min(!!!) and ive yet to do my housework. wtf?! and im having freaggggin' craps now like shitxz man. ugggggggghhhhhh! i guess ill have to delay? hehe sorry helm. oh, and im texting rachel now bout her personal dilemma. HAHHA! and oh ya didnt i mentioned, i cant wait for this Fri! okay i shld stop here or i wont stop blabbering unwanted stuffs. byexzxzxzxzxzxzxzx! :))))